A lot has happened in the last week or so. I almost left dh, spent the week at my parents house to try and figure things out. I get so tired of the selfishness. How can a person be so self involved? I was so angry, but I have calmed down and come to a realization. I have really severe PMS. I get indescribably angry, i have a short temper, i am depressed and out of energy and I can't think clearly. In high school i ended the best relationship i have ever had because i was thinking irrationally. I have almost ended my marriage twice because of my uncontrollable anger and irrationality. Actually, I realized this a long time ago and tried to talk to a doctor about it, but she just blew it off.  So I am going to go to a different doctor who hopefully will be able to shed some light on the situation.

In other news, I love baking. I could literally bake all day long, non stop and be perfectly happy. It is truly my passion. I made over four dozen cupcakes today and it was glorious. And the silly thing is i just made them for fun. I don't have anything going on. I just like to bake. It was marvelous. I would love to have a pastry shop. I would love to bake for clients' parties and events. I love for people to admire what I've done. It feels amazing.